its weird that i dont even know how to start this entry.

first thing, i am so down on luck. i dont even know what this feeling is. i am not sad or depressed. nothing negative. so just put it, very down on luck.

we just lost a thousand dollar. i dont feel the pinch. maybe i just refused to feel the pinch. it sucked. alot. i just wanna sleep everything away.

there's something about rain lately. tell me if its a good thing. i stumbled across something maybe i shouldnt have on a rainy day. no. no negative feelings. perhaps i am so numb or start with a D. i am so losing myself. sound insane. it took an hour for it to set in. i sat back and thought to myself; not again! why am i so down on luck!? i looked around me. an unfamilar place which feels familar. is this a stranger in my life? am i stranger too? did i do anything cruel to you? are you scare to let me know its you? where's the kindness in the eyes? i breathe in the inexplicable fear. my heart racing. i rubbed my hands. tucked my knees. and no more rain. i realised i am so much stronger than that. for once, i am so jealous of rach and andre.

on a lighter note, i can drive without glasses in daytime. we must have been the craziest people. we drove topless round changi road. its super dusty. and i am loving posh now. hahahahahahahahahaha

i should take a shower and watched some dvds.

goodnight world.